DEAR DEIDRE: BEING sexually assaulted as a teenager made me go off the rails and sleep with 20 guys in a year.

I felt so disgusted with myself that I became celibate.

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But now I’m seeing a lovely guy. We haven’t had sex yet and I’m scared to because I don’t think I can stay faithful.

I am a 25-year-old woman and was raped when I was 16 by an older guy, who was my first boyfriend.

He forced me to have sex when I wasn’t ready, taking my virginity.

It made me lose my self-respect. I started to think I might as well give my body to any guy who wanted it.

Eventually, I realised I was making myself more miserable and so stopped having sex at all.

My new boyfriend, who is 28, is kind, respectful and patient. He doesn’t know about the sexual assault.

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But I find it so hard to trust myself and I’m sure I’m going to mess things up.

All I want is to be normal.

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DEIDRE SAYS: Even though what happened was not your fault, it made you feel worthless.

You used sex to punish yourself.

My support pack, Sex Addiction, explains more.

You don’t think you can be faithful because you’re scared you’ll get hurt if you trust again.

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Getting some counselling to deal with the sexual assault should help you to move forward.

Please contact Rape Crisis (rapecrisis.org.uk, 0808 802 9999).

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