Sid Owen has revealed he and his fiancée Victoria Shores suffered a tragic miscarriage earlier this year, before Victoria's current pregnancy.
The former EastEnders star, 49, said he and his wife-to-be were left "shell-shocked and numb" by the heartbreaking ordeal eight months ago.
Sid and Victoria, 42, are currently expecting their first child together, after sharing the happy news with OK! earlier this year.
Former soap star Sid, who played Ricky Butcher on the BBC One soap for 24 years, candidly revealed how he was overjoyed when Victoria became pregnant unexpectedly.
But, Victoria tragically lost the baby nine weeks into the pregnancy.
Victoria has recalled to The Sun: “One evening I noticed there was some light bleeding.
“Instinctively I was worried because when you’re pregnant it’s an immediate cause for concern.
“It got progressively worse through the evening and I had pain in my abdomen, I couldn’t sleep and my mind was racing.
“The bleeding got heavier and didn’t stop, so the next morning we went to the hospital.
“I was pouring with so much blood, I was surprised they were able to use a probe.
“They told me I’d lost the baby as there was nothing there and was just sent straight home.
“I felt so shocked and numb. I was bleeding for days after and it was bewildering, I didn’t know what to do with myself.
"It would be great to have had a follow-up appointment, but as things stand you don’t get anything.
“Looking back, I was in so much shock after I was discharged.
“Nobody reaches out or gets in touch after that. It’s lonely.”
And Sid said he struggled with his mental health the ordeal. He said: “Afterwards I remember Vic telling me, ‘I’m sorry’, because she felt guilty. Of course I didn’t blame her at all — we were both feeling emotional.
“I didn’t know what to say or do. I could have done with some advice or someone to talk to. I felt empty and helpless.
"We were so excited and then suddenly it felt like we had lost everything.
“I was trying to be strong for Vic. I felt I couldn’t break down as I wasn’t in physical pain, but emotionally I was in pieces.
“I was so attached to this idea of our baby. There wasn’t a day that passed when we didn’t speak about the baby. It was a grieving process.
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“It took the emotion out of me. I felt numb and didn’t want to go out or see anyone. It took a real toll on my mental health.”
He added: “After the miscarriage it just solidified us wanting to have a baby.
“Not only that, I realised I wanted to marry her. Our dedication to each other was never an issue and we did not leave each other’s side.
"We then decided we would try IVF if necessary, so it was a miracle we got pregnant so quickly naturally. We are so thankful.”
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