LITTLE Mix's Jesy Nelson has revealed cruell troll abuse has made her not want to have kids.
The singer, who won a National Television Award for her documentary Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out, said she would hate to see her child experience the same bullying that she did.
In an honest new interview with the Mail's You magazine, she spoke of how the band's early days affected her mental health, leading to a heartbreaking suicide attempt.
She said: "Before we got in the group, I never looked at myself and thought, 'I don’t like that' – I don’t think any of us did.
"I never thought, 'Oh god, I’m fat', and then we got in the industry, and we all started wanting to change things about ourselves. It’s so sad. There are things [in the past] I definitely wish I hadn’t done."
When bandmate Leigh-Anne Pinnock added that it made her fear for her own future daughters, Jesy said: "It makes me not want to have a kid."
Yesterday Jesy pulled out of the final of their BBC1 show The Search and tomorrow’s MTV EMAs through illness.
The singer, 29, had been due to appear on the panel of their talent show as well as host and perform at the MTV EMAs, where they are up for four awards.
A spokesman for the band said: “Jesy is unwell and will not be appearing on tonight’s final of Little Mix The Search.
“She will also not be hosting or performing at tomorrow’s MTV EMAs.”
The group also spoke of their sadness that Jesy wouldn't be part of the show.
Its official Twitter account wrote: "Can you believe tonight’s the FINAL of @LMTheSearch!!
"We’re unbelievably proud of all 6 bands and we can’t wait to see the final 4 perform! We’re so sad Jesy won’t be able to join us tonight, but we have such an amazing show in store for you all x."
The news came just a day after the group released their sixth studio album Confetti.
Fans were quick to send their well wishes to the star.
One, @jeroMIXER, wrote on Twitter: “Please send our regards and well wishes to Jesy Red heart We love her no matter what.”
Another, @SERENUELAA, tweeted: “OMG, THIS IS SAD IN FINALS AND MTV EMA, BUT her health is all that matters, get well soon jesyy we love youuu!”
Jesy appeared alongside bandmates Leigh-Anne Pinnock, Jade Thirlwall and Perrie Edwards on the semi-final of The Search on Friday evening, which was pre-recorded last Saturday.
The episode saw the girls perform their recent single Holiday as well as their 2016 hit Touch.
The group were first put together on The X Factor in 2011 and have since scored 16 Top Ten hits including four No1 singles.
Last September, Jesy won praise for her emotional BBC documentary Odd One Out in which she opened up about the impact which trolling had on her.
Since then she says she has started to embrace herself but told The Sun in March how she still finds it hard to feel confident.
She explained: “I will never, ever sit here and say, ‘Oh my God, I’m so confident now, I love myself’, because I don’t.
“It’s just something that I’m working on and I’m accepting myself for who I am.
“I know I’ll never, ever be the same and feel the same about myself.
“But I think I’m slowly starting to get myself to a point where I’m just accepting it for what it is and learning to get over certain things that I couldn’t before.”
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